Mardhiah Isa But Love To Be Known As D.
Currently Studying For 'O' Level At "THE FIRST PRESIDENT SCHOOL".
Hoping To Be The First To Watch NEW MOON.
Im Not A Bookworm But I Love Reading Books.
And Believe It Or Not, I'm SEVENTEEN.
i was asked to clean the whole house with my brothers.
i was also toured in the kitchen, as a result, got couple of cuts on my finger due to cutting bawang and peeling potatoes.
i was asked to fry a lot of food which cause me to sweat non stop due to the heat of the fire(its like in a sauna).
been in the kitchen for hours without breaks.GOD!
slept late.
oh ya, its a preparation for NIS cukur rambut kenduri. hurray for you bby!
SUNDAY'S EVENT;
woke up earlier than yesterday, 6.45 in fact.
tired as ever.
still helped around, carrying things, washed things and etc.
the event started and the house was KECOH!
people are everywhere, kind of irritating i guess.
finally got to chill for awhile with cousins.
few hours later, helped around with everything.
6-7 pm, unknown peoples starting to leave,finally.
began to carry everything that's outside to inside, back and forth.
changed of clothes and do the dishes.
finally everything has ended, i got lots of rest.
everybody happy, they sleep-_-
AND SERIOUSLY, WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO THE WEATHER? ITS GETTING VERY HUMID AND HOT EVERYWHERE! I EVEN SWEAT WILL SLEEPING, IMAGINE THAT. THIS IS ALL BECAUSE OF CUTTING DOWN TREES, CREATING FIRE, SMOKE RISES, LEADS TO THE THINNING OF THE OZONE LAYER. CREATING A HOLE AND ITS NOW GETTING BIGGER. THUS, THE SUN RAY EASILY ENTERS EARTH CREATING SUCH WEATHER, I GUESS SO. OMG!! NEED AIR-CON EVERYWHERE IN SINGAPORE-_-
i knew he would take that tittle! ha ha. it was the greatest day of my life after knowing he beat ADAM LAMSOMETHING. the first song he sang blew me away!*MELTING. but i might say, it was a fair fight between both of them. so the mock exam RESULTS was out, and this is what i got;
ENGLISH- 25/50
MALAY- 50+/100
MATHEMATICS- 76.5/100
CHEMISTRY- 32.5/65
PHYSICS- 45/65
HISTORY- 19/25
SOCIAL STUDIES- 15/25
CORE GEOGRAPHY- 42/50
okay now i can officially call myself lucky. seriously, look at that PATHETIC scores. most of it is just pass. well its better than a fail right(positive thinking-.-) but i don't mind getting that score. mainly because it really show how many effort i put in for this exam, which is 40-60 percent effort? if u think that's good, well think again. by now i should start my own self revision cos 'O' level is 4 months away. and now I'm feeling worried with a slight feeling of nervousness.GOSH!
anyways, MT 'O' level is at 1 June 2009. WTH?! that's so fast, its like a blink of an eye. furthermore i suck at my own language, how more pathetic can i be? all i need is to get B3 for it and I'm done for it but sadly i cant. how? hmmmm*CLUELESS. and for this coming JUNE HOLIDAYS wont be a HOLIDAY for us student. there's remedial for every week. its pressuring i know. it couldn't be any worse then this.*SIGH
p.s; i miss my darling bogyman at CCK LJS*XOXO sir Jachin.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIDDEE<3 happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to KIDDEE, happy birthday to you! hey,look!you're gonna die any time sooner,like me!ha ha.
dear idiot-fucker-baka shinyyu desu,
i know this few months had been HORRIBLE for us, and i apologize. if you want, u can put the blame on me. i wouldn't mind as, ya i know, it all because of me. ha ha, idiot! but babe, about today, i cant believe i ALMOST forgot your birthday.(what kind of a bf am i right?) well, it wasn't my intention, really. somehow, somewhere, it just slips of my mind. it's horrible to hear that but its true. maybe because he hadn't been like a normal bf should be? oh well, what's happens had happens and what's done, had done. we could hang again like last time, if u want? or tutor me math like you used to? i don't mind, but there's always a 'SEE HOW' if you were to ask me. ha ha. wow, times flies and it's been 3 long, best, terrific, magnificent and lovely years after knowing you. and the best part is, i never regret them all. knowing you would be the B-E-A-U-TIFUL thing that could happen to me. and for that i gracefully Thank You. if it hadn't been from you, i think I'm nowhere near from having the life i had like now. you changed me, you turned from a spoil-rude-nonsense-irresponsible-brat to a thinking-wise-teenage-girl-with-a-dream-and-a-future-to-chase-for. for that, you're everything to me.you're like an angel which god sent from heaven to change me, to lead me to a rightful path of life. i may be rude to you, neglected you, disgust you, hate you but that's just only for a meanwhile and you know that. i would always crawls back to you and you know that. i would always cry back to you and you know that. easy to say, you know everything about me and you know that. it's just what like you said,"we share the same heart, i have half of yours and you have have of mine."right?ha ha, well just know that life is meaningful and you should enjoy every second of it with your love ones. no matter what happens babe, i would always <3 you.so enjoy you birthday and i hope you wont be fallen sick often again.
last week's practical exam was... a MIRACLE i tell you! ha ha. in the processing of doing the dish was terrifying but then it turns out to be brilliant. however, there's only 1 problem, one of the dish which is my macaroni cheese was horrible! ha ha. Mdm Norliah literally split out the food for testing after 2 chews. that was hilarious. i dnt mind really cos i tasted it myself and its true enough that it was a disaster.*GIGGLE
so after the practical, i thought of going to my brother's band performance but, ha ha, i was lazy. instead, i watch Gossip Girl on Surf The Channel.com. it was exciting and so much fun-er. ohh, how i wish my life could be like "them"(a spoil filthy rich brats with branded clothes, shoes and everything, and well studies is not a concern to them as money can buy their way to education.BRILLIANT PEOPLES) and and, oh my fugging god! i so fancy Chuck Bass!*MELTING. he's so sexy with the eyes, so mischievies with his "little games" and his a womanizer for god sake. i wonder how he's like in .... okay,ha ha, lets not go there.*WINKS, moving on..
hmmmm, is there something i forgot to say maybe?hmmm, ohh ya,right! do you humans notice my new blog skin? weeee~ it's kindda plain but i like just the way it is. thanks to my bitch of cos.(what i'll so without you right bitch?ha ha.)*XOXO appreciate it.
personal thoughts; i wonder what it's like to be loved by your own true soulmate. seriously, what is love exactly? is it just for fun or forever?and how you know whether you're in love with that somebody? is it when you cry for that person? is it when you share your deepest darkest secret to that person? or maybe is it because of the fun time you had with that person? frankly, i believe no such thing as 'LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT'. its just BULLCRAP.
LOVED; D.
Friday, May 15, 20097:23 AM
okay exams are over,hurray... overall the paper was manageable. I've been sleeping late for the past exam weeks, and it was all because of the last minute revisions. i swear i remembered telling myself to revise earlier. but maybe i think i couldn't hear myself, so much for that. however, i strongly think I'm going to flunk my chem paper. seriously, i had no time studying chem as i was too engross with physics. i literally wrote bullshit answers, without even thinking. ha ha. maths, malay, english, core geography and physics was alright, i guess. as for combined humanities, ermmm, don't even ask. i suck at that.
so just now i went to IMM with curl. it was a blast! we went Daiso to get some things for our 'O' level FNN practical exam. it was a headache thinking about what should i buy and what is suitable, gosh! i was picky i tell ya. haha, then again, its just me. well tomorrow im going to cook 4 dishes, pizza, homemade cheese chicken burger, macaroni and cheese and soy oat cookies. i just hope for the best tomorrow, ohh how i wish a professional chef could be by my side the whole time. i didn't even practice at home. only you, yes you god, who can help me. Amin.
oky, so tomorrow would be bro's band performance too. it's held at arab street, i forgot the particular street name as it's so.... strangely named. well, i planned to go but the ticket would cost me 8 bucks, plus, who would want to go with me?*cluelesssssss.
personal thoughts; people, now please take me seriously. i know im not a good listener when it comes to personal problems nor a shoulder to cry on, and i may or should i say ALWAYS laugh and say something stupid when someone is being serious or letting their heart out but that does'nt mean it's okay for you to not take me seriously. i could be taken seriously if i feel that your problem is... problematic and not pathetic. PS: im sorry shinyyu-san if i wasn't being a supportive, caring, there-for-you-whenever-u-needed-me shinyyu desu. ya things isn't the way they are like the olden days, i agree with that. but i don't know what's gotten into me lately whenever it came to you. and ya i also know that IDK isn't good enough but what is exactly good enough for you?
loved: D.
Thursday, May 14, 20098:38 AM
i seriously need to change my blog skin! help anybody? desperate people need desperate measures. D.
Sunday, May 10, 20097:23 PM
Will you be there when I'm down, And catch me when I fall? Will you hold me when I need To feel the warmth of your touch?
Will you laugh when I laugh, And cry when I cry? Will you let me rant and rave, When I need to let off steam?
Will you discuss those painful things, That you'd rather not think about? Like the times we've hurt each other, And promised would never do so again?
Will you say the right thing, When all I've heard is the wrong? And tell me soothing words, That make the pain I feel subside?
Will you understand me when I say, "I can't see you now, go away"? Will you come back when I call, As if nothing happened at all?
If you'll do these things for me, And keep smiling all the way. If you'll be with me through the bad times, As well as the good.
Then truly you are my friend, My pal, my mate and my confidante. And that means so much to me. I thank you dearly, for being there, You, My Friend.
LOVED;
D.
Sunday, May 3, 20093:40 AM
FACEBOOK FCUKERS! just adddddddd, thank you; pompan_giler@hotmail.com LOVED; D.
cousins are like friends, but definately more BETTER. they're there whenever you need some idiotic company. they will always bring laughter along whenever you need it the most. you wont fight with them cos there's nothing to fight about in the first place! we seldom see each but i guess that's the key that makes us close with one another. life is too early to tell weather if horrible or horrendous. just stick with your family and love one's and everything will be A-okay. LOVED; D.
Sitting beside you, staring into your eyes my stomach does a flip and my heart cries i don't think i should be feeling, like i am today because every time you touch me, our love just melts away i know you'd do anything, to keep me by your side but I'm not feeling the same, and i don't know why it used to be that every time you touched me i felt like flying but today I'm feeling strange...i feel like our love is dying so the hardest part now, is for me to figure out if today will last forever, or am i just having doubts saying goodbye will be too hard, i already know I've already figured out that its hard to let people go i guess you could call me confused, because its obvious that i must be i guess i could wait for you, but I'd only be hurting me so until you're in my shoes, and know just how i feel don't call me crazy,because you don't know the deal i just want you to get the picture, that its my heart to break and if I've done the wrong thing, then I'll learn from my mistake so I'm trying my hardest, I'm going to say goodbye its hurts for me to keep it in, but it hurts to see you cry so once again, here i am, not knowing what to do i don't want to hurt me, but it seems worse to be hurting you so i guess i'll just hold on, i'll try to keep it in maybe this feeling i have today, wont ever come again so please god, help me solve this once and for all not letting me feel the pain, over and over again LOVED; D.
